never back down

ok so my life in brief.. hi, i live in ubo.... you now know my life story.

i had the most awesomely amazing weekend in victoria, it was sweet, and incredably random. so this is what happened, so tuesday im on facebook and thought i should go to vic for like.. 2 days or something.. i tald my mom about my brillant thought (which was completely unplanned and doubtful) and she said "ok you leave tommorrow, come back sunday" well... that went well.

but it was so great, i got to see a bunch of people who i like never see, and i got to be cityish for once. im so glad i had people with me cause im really bad at remembering to wait before crossing the street, i almost got hit by a car, on so many occasions. note to self...wait for signal! but it was so great to get out of town for a bit, refreshing actually. Lauren took me to a grocery store, for the 3rd time in my entire life, and then Daniel met us there later. well yea... lets just say it was a whole new world for me, they had cooked food...in a store... and nothing was out of date! it was like resturant/chinatown/store/superfluous amounts of weird foodish type items. living in a store is sure different. well, she found it quite entertaining. i cant even begin to explain how it affected me being there, but it gave me a whole new state of mind... i was... happy.

saturday night i decided i needed to go home, for many reasons. i didnt really want to leave, but i just couldnt stay anymore. but now its back to reality, back to my life, in ubo... a hell hole, but its still my home, its still my life. i've decided im gunna change, it will be hard, but i cant live like this forever, i need to break free. i refuse to give up, i will never back down, i'll fall, i know that, but i will fight to the death, i need this, i want this, its time to change. i am not afraid. i dont fear the sinful ways of life here, i now embrace them, they've made me into who i am, without my past i would be a totally different person, id be stupid and arrogant, selfish, and ignorant. whatever doesnt kill me can only make me stronger, i'm ready, no matter what. if anything tries to bring me down or get in my way or bring me down i will only laugh at them.

" the world will give you a lot of troble, but i have overcome the world"