Monday, September 7, 2009

goodbye

yesterday i had to say a tearfully goodbye to a lot of amazing campers and staff

the day after tommorrow, i have to say goodbye to my parents and to my life as i know it and head off to ledger house where i will be living with a bunch of people i dont know, completely alone, for an absolute minimum of a month and a half, i'll most likely be there for 3 months, maybe 2 or 2 and a half if i'm "lucky."

i absolutely hate it. hate as in i want to friggen set fire to the building. i want to punch walls and break things. i want to cut again. i want to yell and scream. i want to puke. it makes me sick.
i want to cry, but i dont want to die. or do i?

but God will be with me. and i cant forget the things i learned this summer. its gunna be hard. but i'll just have to presevere.

3 comments:

  1. what is ledger house?
    i never said goodbye to you.
    i didn't know where you went and i had to leave really quickly..
    frick.
    i miss you!

    ReplyDelete
  2. its hard to explain, i dont even really know, its like a rehab type place for people dealing with eating disorders, addiction, being suicidal...

    yeah.. its hard to say goodbye to everyone, i know.

    i miss you too!!!

    ReplyDelete
  3. ohh okay
    i'm praying for you Grace.
    i love you alot!

    ReplyDelete