oh boy..

i'm trying to just deal with things on my own, but i could really use a chat right now. oh well... i'll deal.

all anyone is talking about is how fun pre-grad was last night. all they did was get really drunk. i didn't go because i didnt feel like being the only one there not drunk, but apparently people are mad that some of the grads didnt go. so i guess i'll have to go to the next one.... oh the joy... not! oh well, i can be sober and still have fun with them while they're drunk... right? i'm getting a little sick of having that be all i hear about though. oh and it sucks that the only other christian in the high school was there and got drunk and is now going on and on about how awesome it was. she's changed a lot. last year she was so... not like that. i want to talk to her about it, but when? how? i dont think she wants to.

so now its just me. alone.

oh well... i'm getting heaps involved with school this year and i'm trying to get connected with a church.

i do have one person supporting me, but they're not really living out their faith. they're more like "i totally believe in God and i'm glad i have someone to talk to about spiritual stuff now, and now i'm gunna smoke some weed" i love them, but i wish i had some support from someone whos not into that stuff, heck, i wish i could just find one friggen person at this school that isnt into that stuff.

oh well.... God will get me through.

... i wish i could talk to someone though.