just call me big sister :)

okay so this is how its been...

actually okay.

the guys are just like little brothers to me. i love them so much. we've had some really sweet group times and until wensday we were sorting through all our difficulties amazingly well. but then a new kid came whop happens to be particularly difficult and all hell broke loose. every night i find myself sooo sick of being the responsible one, they look to me to deal with it all and its exhausting. i'm okay though, i'll get through it. but then one guy wants me to buy e off him and another guy wants me to always be on his side while he treats the new kid horribly and tries to strangle him and then gets in a fight with another one of my little brothers and everything is just so friggen stressful. i know i'll get through it though. it will be so good to get a change of scene on sunday. i'm learning hella about God though, its really forming me. i'm learning a lot about responsability, maturaty, loving others, leading by example, patience, endurance etc etc. i'm no longer the one desperate for guidance, i'm now the one everyone looks to guide them. weird huh? its def a life lesson

i'm trying hard not to udse names for confidentiality reaons so
please pray for my little brothers
lil b 1- he seems to be the only one who wants to be here. please pray that it will help him in many ways.
lil b 2- he is so angry right now and getting in fights a lot and i dunno, he doesnt give himself enough credit. also, he's so into drugs and alchol, he's only 13, its so sad...
lil b 3- please pray that he will get some rest. and also that he will see that the life he lives is sooo dangerous. he needs to get out.
lil b 4- please pray that we will learn how to encouarge him and that he will learn to calm down a bit. pray that he will find joy in his life