do guess what i just found out... my dad blames God for my suicide attempts.
another life ruined by me. how typical. frickk why am i still alive? i havent done anything significant with my life, i havent impacted other peoples lives (positively), and then theres all the people who would be far better off without me.
k so everyone has a lifeline list right? well all through last year i had 4 people on mine, today i thought about it and i changed it, my list now contains 2 people. both of whom are difficult to get a hold of most of the time but w,e. maybe God is trying to teach me to rely more on him and less on other people.
it's not your fault your dad thinks that. don't hold it against yourself.
ReplyDeleteyou have far more than 2 people, grace, and you know that. i'm sorry i haven't been able to pick up the phone, i've been knee-deep in so much junk i don't even know how to deal. i didn't want to half-ass a reply to your message, but i am praying.