i used to put up a wall. i used to block everyone out. i used to wonder what the world would be like behind my wall, but i didnt dare look. i thought it might be more beautiful than i imagined. i think maybe i was right. my wall is crashing down, and i never planed for this to happen, but i think it is a good thing. i can let people in now, i dont have to push everyone away. i can love people like i never knew was possible. i can see more clearly, i can open up a little. i can be a little less fearful. i can forgive fully and allow old wounds to heal, i can learn so much more all the time. i can go after more opportunitys. i am discovering a whole new side to life. and it is good.
but... im also more vulnerable than i'd like to be, i have to trust God with childlike faith, or i wouldnt be able to put my gaurd down, to watch my wall come crashing down and see what its like on the other side. in this kind of life im begining to experiance, i will surely be hurt deeply, but for some reason, im okay with that. sometimes you need to go through pain to experiance healing. you live and learn. its time to stop holding back.
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