at the moment i'm trying to decide on something and i don't really know what i'm gunna do. okay, so on the bright side, theres only 2 choices for this one.
a) i work kaleo grad and say goodbye to them
b) i dont go to kaleo grad and avoid the whole goodbye thing.
right now i'm leaning towards choice b but then i'm kinda wondering if i'll regret it later. the thing is im trying to just apprechiate the fact that i get the oppourtunity to know the kaleos every year. but on the other side: why the heck do i keep doing this to myself? i know what will happen when i get to know kaleos but yet i do it anyways and then i end up her, at the point of goodbye, and i dont regret it, but i dont want to do it again. i dont want to do this every year. but of course, im just going to have to shut up about this now because everyone will keep telling me how lucky i am so whats the point in saying anything about how painful it is for the youth kids and people who get to know the kaleos, i dont think the kaleos acknowledge the fact that it hurts us too but whatever i guess its kinda selfish of me to be thinking so much about how it affects me when they have to say goodbye to each other so they're sorta feeling like i am too only in a different way because.. well... all i can relate it to is saying goodbye to my c.i.t's, only worse.. so yeah, as of now, i wont even mention goodbye or their grad or anything. this will be my last post about it. and then i will watch them leave and although it will hurt, i will simply move on with my life, and then in a few more months, there will be a whole new group and i will have to decide if i'm going to get to know them or not. i'm leaning towards not.
it's better to have loved and said goodbye than not to have loved at all. always.
ReplyDeleteI've decided that I am dragging you out there. I don't even really know these kaleos grace but I want to see them again. I know youll regret not going..therefor..I signed up and am now working that weekend and so will you..because I said so.
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