prayer requests

so im faced with a dilemma.. i'm clearly in a life that generally sucks and am failing to escape it. but something that has been brought to my attention is... how the hell am i supposed to help people with their problems if im still involved in all this stupid shit? how can i be a good influence when im caught up in this? a friend of mine who i have always looked up to has told me that they want to start drinking, i was horrified. i begged him not to do it, i told him about how it fucked up my life and my friends lives but he still sort of wants to do it.. he says he needs some fun in his life and he wants to kinda fit in more and thinks it will help him deal with his problems... it worries me, those are the main reasons i started it. i dont know what to do, i dont know how to help him, i think right now all i can do is listen and be there for him. but i wish i could do more, but the kind of problems he's dealing with arent things i know anything about because well.. i'm a girl.. im going to see him this week and im hoping that it will help him but.. i dont know how to have fun without drugs or crime. pathetic right? well.. i started when i was 12.. and before that all i remember was playing spies and making forts in the bushes and riding horses.. thats a little less than helpful. our 'sober fun' after that was stealing random crap and having makeout parties with the guys.. also not helpful. im glad that part of my life is over but i think id be better off without the weed and drinking . so i really never have learned to have fun without crime and partying.. how the hell am i supposed to convince him that you can have a good time without it when i cant even convince myself. well... i'll find a way. but i cant be much help if im still doing this crap.. he needs somebody better than me, or maybe i can just try to be better.. for his sake.. and mine.. i can do that right? i have to. i cant let him go the same route that i went, im not gunna let him get hurt like that if i can do anything about it. but he needs help that i cant give him.. its times like these it would be so much better if i was a guy so i would know more about how he's feeling. it kills me to see him hurting like this. so this is my plan.. im gunna do something about it. maybe i can help myself throught trying to help him.. im gunna fight like hell for this, and im not fighting alone. i have god on my side and i know this because why else would it be so hard? satan is afraid of me winning because he knows my faith is only growing, the more i fight, the more i pray, the more i read, the stronger i'll get, and with god on my side, and when im fighting for the right thing, i know i can do it, i know we can do it, we're in this together, and nothing will stop us, i know it. i can feel it. please pray for him, he has so many things that are hurting him and it kills me because i cant make it stop, its a pain that i cant fix, but god can. so please pray that god will help him deal with it and feel better about himself. please pray that god will guide him and carry him when things get too hard. so that he can turn away from the dark and scary path that drinking leads to. pray that he will find healing and happiness and that he will know that he is not alone, we are on his side. please pray for me as well.. that i may find ways to help him as much as i possibly can and that i can hold onto the lord for strength so that we may both turn away from the devil and his... (i cant believe im saying this)...lies. pray that the lord will give me patience and endurance so that i can really be there for him whenever he needs me, but also that i will know my limits, as i am not jesus, therefore there is only so much i can do for him. please pray for the both of us. it breaks my heart to see him in pain.
another dear friend of mine is going through something so horrible it makes me want to stab someone. there is a guy who is treating her like shit. she says she loves him but he is only taking advantage of her, she is a lovely, beautiful girl but he has corrupted her to the point that she thinks she is worth nothing more than what he treats her as; an object. he has her giving bj's to him and all his friends and i know she doesnt want it but she says that she feels special that they want her at all. they have broken her so much that she feels she is worth nothing and she thinks its a miracle that they want her at all but thats not it. i cant stand to see my girl, my wonderful best friend being treated like this. i want to fucking kill this guy for hurting her like that. and it scares me cuz im actually serious.. if i meet this guy.. i dont even want to think about it. i love her so much. he has no right to do this to her. but she wont leave him, she wont say no because she is afraid and i've been there i know what its like but how could god allow this to happen to her? why isnt he protecting her? she is so precious, she deserves a guy who will treat her like a princess. she is worth the world and he is treating her like some kind of whore, as if he owns her or something. it makes me sick to my stomach. please please pray for her as i dont know what to do she insists on defending him and i cant go to the cops because i dont know who he is and i know she will just deny it. please pray that god will show me a way to help her, and that he will protect her and give her the strength to say no or go to the cops about it, i've been there i know its horrible and she needs love and protection right now, please please keep her in your prayers, she means the world to me, if only there was some way i could make it stop or something, anything, i just dont want her to be broken, i dont want her to be in pain, its destroying me to know that she is going through this. i dont know what to do.. i am begging for an answer.

how did the world get this fucked up? it is so obviously satan and it makes me sick. i hope he loses i hope he is miserable i hope god will defeat him again and again, i hate satan. i loathe him. i despise him so much that as of now.. i am turning my back on him forever and running to god. its time to change. i cant believe i let him control me for so long. well never again. im on gods side now and im never going back. and this.. is a PROMISE!
amen!