on the inside

- did you know, i'd still say yes if you asked, but you won't
- dear mom && dad, i'm not a horrible person. please believe that.
- i'm dying to talk to her right now, and it isn't happening, i miss you.
- sometimes i wonder if people will just suddenly stop caring about me
- thank you Lord, for turning everything around
- i will survive
- we are soldiers, we have war wounds, our story is that He heals us.
- they sent me home from ledger, as soon as i began to enjoy it.
- i suck at keeping in contact, i'm sorry
- i'm a mess of insecurities
- but, insecurity, in the end brought me closer to God, again..
- love me or hate me, i promise it won't make or break me.
- do you have any idea how much you mean to me?
- i thought i wanted someone to say they were proud of me, i didn't. i want to be proud of myself one day, i don't think i ever will be. maybe i will, if in heaven God ever tells me that He's proud of me, that is what i really want.
- it feels weird. i don't know how i'm going to feel when the official day comes. will i tell anyone? or just keep it as my secret accomplishment?

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theres a million things i wish i could say. theres so much i want to get off my chest, but i don't know how to say it. sometimes even when i do try to talk about it i don't feel understood, and i don't think i know how to explain it. sometimes i wonder what the point is in talking about it anyways. most of all though, i just wish i had a sister or someone who could actually be here with me. so... to those people with a sister close in age to you, please realize how very lucky you are.