so sick

she's the pretty one,
the successful one,
the lovable one,
the favorite,

and i don't even get a name.

i feel like it will always be this way. i feel like i'm always going to be the ugly duckling. the one who never gets noticed. the one who will always end up alone. but the thing is.... i would rather be unnoticed and alone but with a beautiful heart, than be pretty and everyones favorite but be shallow, caught up in the world, with a selfish heart.

lets get these teen hearts beating faster, faster

so much going on, so much to think about.

from family changes to new friends to new routines to graduation to thinking about the future. the future seemingly meaning leaving this town, my friends, my family, my life.. and heading to a place i've never been before thats supposed to be good for me.

i'm terrified

i'm excited

i'm homesick

i'm suffocated

i want to stay, i want to leave

i'm so confused. and that brother of mine... he's stupid but i love him... and i'm so worried she's going to break his heart, even though she's great and i love her.