one of the many things learned from campers

my campers loved me. i didn't have to look good, i didn't have to be "cool". for them, just being myself, and proving to them that i actually cared and was glad to have them around, was enough.

why do i worry so much about vanity? the things that i've been evaluating myself on lately, didnt matter in the least to my campers, why should it matter to me?

it seems weird but like... i dont really journal much, so a lot of things just sit in my mind without ever being spoken or written or anything when i dont put them on here, yet i keep wondering.. whats the point?

no one reads this blog anymore. so i think i'm just gunna let it die

dear past

dear past,

i'm a completely different person now, i'd say i'm sorry, but i'm not. but thank you, for i wouldnt be me here and now, if it werent for being me way back then. its all a growing process. hey past, its ok. i don't hate you anymore. you've left me with battle wounds and memories that will never die, but ever since leaving you behind, i've gotten to experiance healing. and you know what, past, i think you've completely lost me now, because the one peice of you that never really came off, slipped right off today without even putting up a fight. why? becuase past, i've found someone else, and now that i fully and completely have let go of everything, i am fully and completely free, and safe in his arms. his name is Jesus. and so past, i bid you farewell, and finally, we can shake hands and leave each other in peace. goodbye past, you have no control anymore even in the slightest. i'm moving up.
sincerly,
God's girl.

undescriptive

something is very different.
i don't know what, why, or how.

i feel like i have a million things to say about my weekend, and my life at this moment, and yet no words are coming out.

therefore, i will simply write something from a song i heard today

"You’re standing right in front of me with arms wide open, all i know is every day is filled with hope, You are everything that i believe for and i can’t help but breathe You in"