the challenge. 30 days.

29 days. seriously. 29 days. not even.

okay so you know how i've been counting down for a while, well now the countdown is getting smaller and smaller and im starting to get anxious wishing i had a bit more time to get ready. in our school, its really small, so prom is for everybody grade 8-12, if the younger kids didnt go, there would be no prom. shitty for the grads but yeah.. so i was planning on going with my girls but then i remembered i applied to work osc staff training week, so i asked Mel what the verdict was on that and i'm accepted :) i'm stoked. i'm gunna get to see so many people that i havent seen in a while. but also... that means summer stars even earlier. about 20 days... wow. and somehow in that 20 days i need to read the book of James and the c.i.t book, and then do the afterthoughts sessions, go shopping for the summer, try to get in a bunch of experiances with my friends that im gunna miss out on this summer without partying, like jumping off the bridge, tubing down the river, swimming across the lake, bonfires, etc.. and fuck, im gunna miss regatta, whatever its worth it. oh yeah...and i need to quit sinning so friggen much, pay back debt from the school year, hopefully get the money back that people owe me so i can get smoothies and laundry service or something. oh and somehow in the middle of all this i need to find time to read the book of John and pray and do my devo's and all that, and make sure i have everything i need for camp. and then comes the dreaded, the horrific, the nightmare, the making it all fit in a suitcase!!! (big loud scary music) gasp!!

so yesturday i made a bet with my friend to see if i could make it a whole day without smoking weed. i won. thats one day. but then we decided to make it a pact, yesturday i had 30 days until c.i.t started. today its 29. if i can make it to c.i.t without getting drunk or smoking weed or doing shrooms or drugs, that will be a whole month clean! an actual accomplishment. and then 2 more months clean at qwanoes, when i get back in september, i think i'll have the strength to keep going. obviously if i can make it 3 whole months without it, im not gunna start again without going through hell and back.

so today is day 2 (or day 29 depending which way you wanna look at it) please pray that my stubbornness will come to good use and i'll be able to resist it.

for the next 29 days, this is a challenge. i'll need support tho.

and i know i need to quit cigarettes too, but i'll work on that later.

k, thats it. frig, wheres Lauren wen you need her. haha