God is amazing

ok so the past few weeks i have been falling away from God because i was trying to do homework/ relax and i stopped praying and reading my bible.. which we all know nothing goes well when we neglect those things. then i was getting overwhelmed with... well... everything. i was just not in a good place.

on saturday i had a conversation with a friend that just broke my heart, and i reached my limit. it was then that i realized i could not handle everything on my own, it just didnt work. it was then that i finally broke down. i knew in that moment that cutting, temptation, things, nothing was going to satisfy me or take away my pain i needed ( and still need) the only one who can take away my pain and burdens, my one and only Savior. so i prayed, and i dont mean like "dear God help me" i mean balling my eyes out praying for him to take my burdens away and to help me to get by because i realized that i was and am completely helpless without him. i asked him why things were happening, i apoligized for everything, and then i realized that he is bigger than everything i was so upset about. i then, fell asleep.

when i woke up in the morning, i felt joyful, light, and soooo grateful to God for putting my burdens on him so that i could stand again. its these things that remind me how great my Savior and Father is, and these things that make me fall even more in love with him.

i can't even begin to tell you how much He taught me this weekend, there is no words to describe how i feel now, i'll just say this then: God is good! but, my situations have not changed, nothing disappeared, everything is still happening, but i'm letting God deal with it now, which means i don't need to be burdened by it anymore, he's got it covered.