Friday, December 11, 2009

thoughts. confessions. randomness.

- i've realized a major issue for the middle school kids with bullying. its so sad because i remember what it felt like and i remember never believing the people that would tell me how insignificant insults from people like that are, if i had known then what i know now things would have been so different, i wish i could get these kids to believe me.

- a friend of mine is going through a really rough time right now, please pray for her

- i thought i forgave him, but then i saw him twice, the first time i hid behind a car, the second time we were bowling and i secretly hoped that a bowling ball would hit him in the nuts. apparently forgiveness is harder than i thought.

- i want to be a living testimony to God's amazing power and grace, i want to be a light for lake cowichan, and im slowly starting to live it out. i took a huge step, theres no going back now. i couldnt be happier. thank you Jesus!

- one year ago today, i attempted suicide for the first time. i just want to say right now, rescue is possible, and im glad im alive.

- i dont know what is going to happen next, i dont know where this path will lead me, but thats the beauty of it. i know He has great plans for me, so im letting Him take over.

- sometimes at the most unexpected moments, God just blows my mind.

- i had a very important question to ask, it was a good one too, but then i forgot. i really hope i remember because i want to know the answer.

- right now im in the baggyest t-shirt i have and pyjama pants with no make up or anything, and i feel beautiful.

- i was feeling a little alone, but then i found out, i am more loved than i ever knew. and i have a whole family thats supporting me, i love them so much, theyre like a 2nd home.

- i worry too much

- school is over in a week

- i've been clean for 6 months

- maybe i was wrong about marriage...

- "your only as strong as the drinks you mix, the friends you roll with, and the tables you dance on" is SO NOT TRUE

- im learning to apprechiate the simple things more, and sometimes i feel sorry for the city kids who dont get to experiance this.

- i love my grampa <3 id="gwProxy" type="hidden">

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