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um.... its march..... friggen hell.

where did the year go? it seems everything's gone by so fast. and now spring break is coming up in like... 8 days.... i think. and the kaleos are leaving in no time (i think 46 days....the countdown is on, and im dreding it) and then theres prom and the hectic last month of school and exams (2 provincials for me this semester) and then summer. which has so much confusion attached to it. and every day now i get a random burst of excitement at the thought that theres a possiblility that i could be spending my summer at qwanoes. could there possiblily be anything better than that?

if anyone knew me well in september...... haha i changed hella. but.... was it for the better? that question has been running through my mind over and over again.

any day now i'll have a new neice or nephew. and it kills me to know that they will never even know that i ever exsisted at all. so much for family.

well still trying to make plans for spring break, its looking like i'll get to see both of my sisters. i've been planning on going to van and staying with Coral and her FIANCE!!! ye...thats right....she's engaged.....im still not over that excitement. apparently i'm gonna be one of her bridesmaids. can you imagine it? haha oh boy. im stoked. it will be the first wedding i've ever been to. i didnt even get an invite to my own brother's wedding. but thats a whole different headache so i wont get into it. anyways, my other sister Candice called. she wants me to stay with her in vic. it will definately be different, and my nephew will definately wear me out, but it will be awesome. and i havent had any "sister time" with her in forever.

this is going to be the first summer since i was little that i wont be going to camp imadene. which is.... extremely weird for me. i mean, i went to imadene before i even went to qwanoes. and i've been going to qwanoes for 6 years. its weird, its so familar and exciting and i can actually go swimminig and tubing and whatever other water activities i want to do there because its fresh water and i hate the ocean. ok maybe not hate.... but extremely dislike to the point that i'd rather get heat stroke. it burns my skin, smells disguisting, hurts like hell if i have a cut, is extremely cold, has seaweed and jellyfish and stuff, and could poteintially get in my mouth and make me want to puke. oh yea...total party. there is only 3 things better about imadene than qwanoes. and like way over 50 things better about qwanoes than imadene. but anyways the three things are
1. water
2. food
3. cabins
one other thing i'll really miss about imadene is the music, its a lot different than qwanoes music, and i like qwanoes music better, but there are some songs from imadene that i'll miss, and its not like they make cd's or anything. and i grew up there, there are a lot of memories and just little things that make it what it is, and thats what i'll miss. but i made this decision last year and i'm sticking to it..... but could i really handle not going back there? and another thing to think about...what if i dont get accepted for cit? will i go to camp at all? youth? what if i dont? i cant even think of not going to qwanoes... talk about torture.